Worry....

A daily event for me.... Will Maddie ever "catch" up with her peers or always be delayed... Will Abby become more focused as she matures and be able to live without meds... Are Gerald & I doing all that we can for our kids... It's the same thing that all parents feel it just gets overwhelming at times.

You want to give you kids every opportunity to grow, mature, and experience things but sometimes it is not feasible due to locale, finances, desire. I would love to get Abby involved in various activities to see what she would excel at...drama, music, etc. We tried dancing and are doing soccer but does seem to really fit her persona although she has always been very compliant in participating. We will try Spanish lessons and I have gotten info about Piano lessons. We have been waiting until she was more focused and could sit still to take on these things.... I see Abby's potential and she is quite smart, just cannot figure out how to apply these to her life and future. Given our combatitive relationship I fear she will be the kid that will not go to school and do crazy stuff just because I told her she has to. Am I too strict, too lenient, expecting too much from her and she knows that....who knows.

As far as little Maddie, every time I think things are going well one of her Therapists give me cause for concern. She is still having difficulty with use of utensils and some sensory issues. Speech Therapist wants to get her a Special Instructor to help with the "physical" side of speech therapy. She can say open door & knows what it means but sometimes does not act on that command. It's just odd and hard to figure out what we can do to make things "click" in her brain. I am pleased with her 2 Therapists and with Early Steps....only 1 more year though and she will be phased out at age 3. Then the public school system and probably our pocketbook (Early Steps provides care for free) will pick up costs once she is 3. Trying to get Early Steps to approve as much as possible over the next year. Her Peds Opthamology Appt is this Thursday and we are hoping this may shed some light on her delays. ENT said ears look great and her CT Scans to date look good. Something just is not "clicking" and we cannot figure out what is causing it or if it is a permanent situation due to the Hydro and shunt failure. Thank God she is such a sweet & loveable child with a laid back demeanor.

So if I look tired and disheveled now you know why. Always worryin abt somthin'.